พัฒนาตนเอง Sep 24

Sep 7th

• I found that my productivity decrease more and more with weight loss(from 50 to 48.8kg). There are 2 suspected causes.
  • Weight loss too much, I may have to stop fasting until my weight gain to normal.
  • Or may it be caused by eating too much in feeding day?(6 meals in one day) because after the feeding day which is fasting day I usually can't focus well, but after fasting day which is feeding day my focus will come back.
  • The experiments
    1. Try eating 6 meals continuously for 2 days?
    2. Try changing to time restricted fasting for 2 days?
  • Other compounding factors
    • Light flickering of display screen(my macbook pro) and the environment(the university library)
      • when I write or doing work on normal laptop that doesn't have flickering display screen(pwm dimming) I can do it comfortably all day but when I do it on my macbook pro which have pwm dimming I usually just be able to work in the morning to afternoon but at the evening I will can't work at all.
      • Also I feel that my language skill don't improve much even I read a lot on macbook pro screen. I suspected that and tried compare reading on my macbook and my another laptop side by side and found that reading and working on a cheaper laptop(without pwm dimming) is so much comfortable.
  • Even at the time I write this diary, I use my cheaper non-pwm dimming laptop and found it is so much comfortable even it has so much less screen quality and resolution(pixel density).

Sep 6th

• Today is my fasting day, I did HIIT in the morning
  • I found that my reading is worse, I suppose it may be caused by eating junk food in the evening.
• Don't eat any junk food, it will kill you.
• I am still considering buying a tablet, the CPU performance is so good with a good screen and the perfect pen and keyboard, and with the budget prices, it is so worth the money. It will work fine for a very long time passes. 
  • however, I am not sure whether it is what I want.
    • I am thinking about a device that provides me with the ability to read textbooks, news, and trade all day.
    • the most I want is to read textbooks more easily from a larger text.
  • Benefit vs cost
    • just reading some text?
    • cost equal to my 3 months of spending.
  • it may be good but not this time!!! I don't really need it!!! it doesn't help improve my life this time.
    1. I am not sure that I will be able to read it all day. (but I have to make sure that I save as much money as I can)
    2. The screen quality is not much different from other displays esp. MacBook Pro
    3. the books I read at this time don't require reading on a tablet than simply reading on a MacBook or Kindle Scribe. (The Academic textbooks will be read after I can make money from trading, at that time I can buy any tablet I want)
• Drop in reading performance from an eye muscle problem, not caused by a small or large text or light flickering
  • I found that if I place the Kindle at a further length I can read it better.
    • which means that reading on screen is still not better than e-ink
  • I found that after I changed the front light of my Kindle to be more blue, my reading performance deteriorated, but after changing it back to more yellow as before, I can read it again.

Sep 5th

• I should track only activities that I am interested in a particular time, not all activities. Keep it simple as possible and use it only for particular purposes eg. reminding of looping activities, not just wasting time in tracking all things without any benefit
• Today 
  • my feeding day
  • reading is so much better after fasting for 36 hours.
  • weight loss(49.1kgs)
• In the afternoon, I usually drop in reading performance, maybe the eye muscle problem is remaining.
  • I also found that if the text size is larger I will be able to read better, even though it is evening.
  • 
    • or is it not a problem from eye muscles but from the fatigue of eye lens muscles which is caused by the flickering of light?
      • because the font in Kindle Scribe is large enough(3mm), normal eyes should always read comfortably, but this may caused by the light from the environment.

Sep 4th

• Today is my fasting day. no exercise because of weight loss(2lbs)
  • my touch typing is gradually better
  • at these times, I sleep quite late every day.
  • I think I will try reading on screen today.
  • it seems like I can't eat any dairy products. After eating yogurt for a few days, I got a little diarrhea, more acne, more facial rash with a flare-up of seborrheic dermatitis.
• Wanting to buy a new tablet is it worth?
  • the cost is equal to the costs of my 3 months
  • the benefit of this tablet is reading which can be achieved on my Kindle, just little convenient in scrolling, note taking and doing other thing eg. trading.
    • it is 3:2 ratio which is good for reading
    • the next question is does it make me read faster or more focus because of better contrast of display?
  • the usage is between kindle and MacBook.
    • if I normally use both, the third may not much necessary.
• Gaming ruins my meditation and focus
  • Increasing free access to entertainment injects my brain with instant artificial dopamine which causes me to focus less on myself and also my reading which causes less productivity.
• Sodium loss from diarrhea
  • I just found that eating dairy products(yogurt) cause diarrhea, and diarrhea causes my body to lose sodium, sodium loss cause me can't focus in the day.

Sep 3th

• I think my life is not very effective, there are some activities that is quite not effectively productive
  • such as too much tracking of activities in my schedule which require some portion of time spent but do not improve much outcome. Also, the tracking must have a reflection or feedback system to improve something in those inefficient daily routines.
  • writing a diary has the nature of a feedback mechanism in itself but not very systematically. Conversely, tracking in schedule is more systematic but spends more time and doesn't provide many effective feedback mechanisms.
  • it must be simple, not too much tiny details, not complex, not boring but simply useful.

Sep 1th

• Today is my feeding day.
  • my touch typing is slower but it comes with a new skill which is typing in words, not pressing each key separately
  • I forgot to do meditation again, even though it is the most important thing in my day.
• If you want to develop any skill, do it in a meditated state eg. Calculation, language, Programming etc.
• Reading and doing short notes simultaneously help a lot in understanding and longer remembering because it will urge the brain to actively process and structure the information which creates a lot deeper understanding and remembering.
• I tried meditation before working and studying, the focus is so much better, and less procrastination.
• Now I am thinking about buying something that will be useful for my life eg. a new smartphone or tablet, but I found that all things that I have(MacBook, Kindle Scribe, smartphone) can do all the job perfectly, buying more will be a burden instead.
  • If I spend money on worthless things, even though I don't have much savings, it means I still can't manage money.
  • What I should do is decrease my need by doing meditation.