พัฒนาตนเอง ส.ค. 24

Aug 31th

• I found that I have ADD which is a variation of ADHD
  • I have taken quite a long time to rule out so many things that affect focus in my work and my life eg. eye muscle problems, light flickering, and glaring but I found that even though I complete all those things without meditation, I still couldn't focus with a lot of distraction and got less productivity.
  • However, when I meditate enough, I can always work and study like any other person.
• For my life, the most important things for self-development are meditation, alternate day fasting and 5min HIIT, which is arranged by importance respectively.

Aug 30th

• Today is my feeding day
• I found that investment takes a long time to increase wealth, so it's not my business at this time.
  But my business is trading because it uses less risk(with more proper knowledge) to multiply profit.
  • Because of less money to diversify and time, I have to focus only on trading.

Aug 29th

• I think my brain was not built for memorizing things such as language, biology, etc. but for that kind of logic esp. programming.
  • When I study subjects that use memorizing skills, even though they look so easy and less stressful, I always can't get any good scores on them, I am always just sleepy after trying to study them.
  • When I study subjects that use logic and calculation esp. programming, even though they look hard and more stressful, I always get pleasure from solving the problem and even do it over time.
• I always feel detached from the environment when I meet failure and sorrow. I think it is great because the environment will not has an effect on you, you don't need to please or care for anyone esp. people who you don't know. Sorrowness is a great teacher, although it comes and goes, the feeling of detachment from the world will stay with me and makes it so much easier to be happy with myself.
• I found that glare deteriorate my reading all day!

Aug 28th

• Today is my feeding day.
  • Cleaning a ton of dust that attached to the wall in my room yesterday, made me sleep a lot better last night, no more runny or constricted nose
• I go reading outside.
• My reading is so slow today. I feel so less active.
  • What I did yesterday were
    • stay in my room all day
    • didn't do HIIT
    • watching anime and playing games which cause an imbalance of my brain's dopamine and addiction which its effect is still lingering today.
      • I still want to play the game today

Aug 27th

• Today is my Fasting day but I didn't do HIIT because I slept so late last night(at midnight)
  • I slept late because I ate 7 meals including a meal before bed, it needed time to prepare(find and buy some food) which caused me to sleep late.
    • don't sleep late, don't eat junk food or poor carb
    • then eat enough to 6-7 meals within 12-14 hours, and do not eat after 8 pm.
    • if all conditions are achieved, then exercise(HIIT) on the next fasting day.
    • I think I won't eat more than 12 hours anymore. If I don't eat enough, I won't exercise instead.
      • just don't do things that harm the body.
• Today I stayed home to clean my room and didn't go outside
• Glare is the worst enemy for reading
  • I found that glare is the worst enemy for reading (than even flickering light). After I've changed position to avoid glare I can read and work much better.

Aug 26th

• Today is my feeding day.
• I think at these times I always sleep late which is so bad, I have to rearrange my sleep cycle to be earlier and also wake up earlier too.
• Study multiple thing is so much better
  • yesterday, I tried multiple studies in a day, it is so much better and more active than doing a single study per day, and I found that it is so much more productive.
  • However, with the nature of the brain, which is lazy, doesn't want some kind of challenge and always tries to conserve energy like the body which is usually lazy for exercise and physical activity. It results in my brain creating delusive unhappy feelings for following my schedule. But when I control myself trying to do my studies as scheduled, it is fun unlike my previous wrong thoughts about it which means that many times the feeling of your mind and your brain can be wrong!
• I did programming yesterday, it is so much fun that I do it over time! even though, at first, I was lazy and didn't want to try it.
• Read so much better
  • Today, I can read much better I think the positive factors can be
    • Doing Brock string vision therapy(after doing it, my reading always be better. But it will be worse, if I do pencil push-up)
    • Study multiple things in a day(if I study only one thing a day, my brain will not be challenged and will not be active)
  • even though I sleep less, argue with my mom in the morning

Aug 25th

• Today is my fasting day with HIIT
  • I did HIIT in the morning. I found that restricting feeding time to 12 hours makes me perform so much better than feeding for 16 hours.
• Reading so much better if I don't argue with my mom
  • even though I read under glaring  or flickering light condition
  • Also, I've changed my vision therapy to the Brock string method which is so much better than pencil push-up.

Aug 24th

• Today is a feeding day
  • My typing agility decreased a bit
• While I was traveling on the bus in the morning, my bus met an accident with a woman on a motorcycle who had slipped because of the wet road. She came under the bus and was crushed which resulted in immediate death. The thing left was the body of the woman on the road that didn't breath anymore.
  • I feel sad and realize how easy life can be to leave everyone.
• I would change to study multiple subjects per day. Don't be serious about the outcome, it is not your fault, but adjust the process.
  • it seems like my 'lazy' mind resists studying multiple things(because it is quite active and challenging), but when I sit down and stare at the text, I find that it will automatically study it.
  • I found that the cause of my inertia during this period is that I studied only one subject for several days which didn't challenge my brain and made it less active.

Aug 23rd

• Today is my fasting with HIIT day
  • I didn't have much energy, I couldn't perform at the maximum performance I could.
• After reviewing my timetable, I found that sleeping 7 hours is the most suitable for me. It always makes me perform well in anything I do eg. meditating, reading, touch typing, etc.
  • However, I may also have to find the factors that make my sleep bad.
    • It may be the heavy dust in my room that caused my nose to constrict and couldn't breathe while sleeping, a fan that directly blew the strong wind all over the night.
• I have to revise my target, I want to make money from investments and trading, so I don't have to work for money, and then I would go abroad to study some kind of computer engineering.
  • I have to read as much as I can in every day.
• I don't know why I feel so much empty when I study trading. I feel like I can't find myself in it. In contrast, studying other things that have real benefits to other people such as finances, programming, etc. makes me feel more fulfilled.
• I think Brock string is much better than pencil push-ups. In every day that I do Broc string my reading just gradually improves. But when I tried pencil push-ups everything got worse.
• I found that taking 1 teaspoon of salt after exercise prevents me from dizziness and feeling weak in a day.
• I tried drinking coffee, but it didn't help improve my reading and also caused anxiety. I think the main problem is that my eye muscle problem still prevails.
  • Thus, I tried reading with a longer distance and the result is so much better. Also, reading with glasses taken off also more comfortable.
• Way to read books all day with no eye fatigue: taking off the glasses
  • With my glasses taken off, I can easily read books and even read on a laptop display all day. It implies that my eye muscle problem still prevails which was triggered with glasses(the more accommodation from len the more convergent my eye muscle).
• 1 tsp of salt prevent Fatigue by exercise on Fasting day
  • I find that taking 1 tsp of salt immediately after exercise completely prevents me from dizziness and fatigue on a fasting day.

Aug 22nd

• Today is my feeding day
  • My touch typing is much better after I've finished fasting with HIIT.
• Tried antiglare film on my e-reader to see if the anti-glare is better than a clear but glossy screen

Aug 21th

• Today is my fasting day with HIIT in the morning
  • I found that after doing HIIT I feel so much fresh, I feel that I became lifeful again.
• I found that using the pointer technique while reading made me able to read even when I thought my eye had already tried.
• I'd struggled with my reading by glaring on the screen for 2 hours. However, after I changed the reading place to reduce glare, it got much better.
• In summary, today I can't read anything, I end up staring at the text all day without anything productive. I think it is because I slept less yesterday from 8hr to 6.5hr.
  • I don't know why I am so vulnerable, just sleeping less ruins all of my day which is such non-sense.

Aug 20th

• Today is my feeding day
  • I feel that my muscles are much weaker even though I did HIIT on feeding day(the day before yesterday) which means that even replenishing enough nutrients especially protein after exercise didn't help maintain the muscles. Instead, exercise on fasting day has a maintaining effect on the muscle mass
• My reading is so much better after I've done vision therapy for 2 weeks for 15 min every day.
• I now practice my English writing skill with Gemini AI https://g.co/gemini/share/2b145b97839a 
• Bad dopamine activities make meditation worse
  • playing games, reading comics, and etc. that release unnatural(bad) dopamine makes my meditation and my life worse.

Aug 19th

• Today is my fasting day, I didn't do HIIT because I wake up so late(I slept for 9 hours last night.)
• I feel like time goes so fast, I assume that it is because I focus too much excessively on trade which so much waste of time. My excessive focus came from over-risk usage and not enough knowledge which made me unconfident in the trading system and always thought that each trade was a critical time for changing my life resulting in trying to use over-risks every time.
  • The good principle in trade is that always spend most time on gaining much more knowledge, less keep watching on chart, focus on just only one-two chart, trade no more than 5 times per day with 0.5% risk limit per trade.
• Glare is a real matter in reading, not light flickering
  • I found that reading under flickering light may not be a major drawback factor, but it is the glaring on the screen.
    • I tried reading under flickering light without glare on the screen, the result is much better than reading under non-flickering light with glare on the screen.
  • in the afternoon, my reading went so well(which is contrasted with the morning read), that what I changed was read with no glare on my screen even under flickering light
    • it also might be ketosis in the afternoon(after 18hrs of fasting)
      • I also didn't do HIIT today, which will make my body have more energy and less stress.
• Studying multiple things is much better. The more hurried, the slower the study progresses.
  • I think I will turn back to studying multiple things in a day again, not only that single Technical analysis. I found that it is no use at all to study all day only a single thing.
  • It doesn't matter how much I try to feed the information to the brain or how much my intention is, using only the same particular region of the brain for such long hours in a day has its limit.
    • Also, the incomplete study of Technical analysis ruins my trade and especially a lot of my money. If I hadn't been too hurried to trade before I completed my studies, I would have been able to save money a lot more.
    • Even the fundamental has its own good(protect and increase my wealth), why do I need to be such hurried to trade with incomplete knowledge in the Technical analysis?
  • Feeding only one type of information to the brain for a long time is not kind of healthy for plasticity and also even not good for that single thing that has already reached its natural limit.
  • The more you hurry, the less you get and the more ruined you are.

Aug 18th

• today is also the second feeding day, I also do HIIT.
  • my touch typing agility is also improved. however, there are also a lot of mistyping.
    • one reason may be that I haven't typed much for a while after I paid more attention to the new retrospective timetable which is much better for seeing the progress of my development.
    • another reason may be that I haven't exercised and also slept late for a few days(probably, last week).

Aug 17th

• today is my feeding day.
  • my touch typing agility has improved.
• I assume that the more I eat late at night, the poorer the later my sleep is.
• I found that reading at meals may not be the proper way to gain knowledge because it requires vision resources which have primarily been used in eating, so the more proper alternative may be watching English videos or listening to podcasts.

Aug 16th

• today is my fasting day but I didn't do HIIT because I slept late last night by reading a comic book.
• Today, because of some housework, I didn't go outside. Stay in the closed room, I met with struggling again in productivity. However, after I tried brute forcing my eye to read books with a pointer guiding technique, it worked(though it is not as good as going outside, at least, it saves my day)!

Aug 15th

• today is my feeding day
  • My touch typing agility is slower. Maybe, it is because after I've changed from recording my daily activities in the diary to in a timetable, I don't write as much as before.
  • However, I wonder how quickly my skill is decreasing!?
• what I want to try is this list
  • (used to do)reading multiple subjects in a day
    • This method does work!
      • I found that I can focus on one thing ultimately not more than 2 hours; exceeding the limit will be a waste of time and will produce nothing or even cause me to procrastinate.
      • Changing to other activities after doing it for 2 hours will keep me able to fully focus on the next activity.
      • The brain is like a muscle. You can't work on the same muscle continuously all day without its performance dropping in a few hours. But if you switch to work that loads on different muscles throughout the day, you will be able to work all day without dropping in performance. The brain is the same in that it contains multiple regions responsible for a particular work, changing activity throughout the day will hugely benefit in maintaining productivity.
  • (used to do)Try doing meditation every hour under flickering light
    • this method does not work, my eye still can't focus in this light condition.
  • Try reading under non-flickering light
    • This method does work!
      • even though I read at the food court where the light is dimmer and the weather is hotter and more humidity than in the library, I was still able to read continuously with a deep focus for a long time because it is no light flickering
  • (used to do)Try coffee under flickering light
• I think one of CDET's goals is to produce programmers for those companies in the country that have a shortage of them. But it does not align with my aspiration to create innovation for the world.

Aug 14th

• Today, I fasting all day with HIIT
  • I found that increasing the distance until breathe hard and intensely makes me more active in a day.
    • Running for longer distances with even moderate to high intensity can cause the body to utilize O2 more and reach VO2 max.
    • this method will cause less injury because of less force needed
• I found that I can detect light flickering by using pro mode in the camera of a smartphone by setting the shutter speed to as fast as it allows; for my phone, it is 1/4000.
• I think the disadvantage of studying a single thing in a day is there will be less restriction in time monitoring and self-control resulting in procrastination between the studying hours.
  • Also, prolonging the study of the same thing for a long period may cause boredom and less willingness to achieve the lesson.

Aug 13rd

• Today is my feeding day
  • I feel like my touch typing is slowed down and has less agility.
• I think I will complete reading the technical analysis first and then I will make a short note of it.

Aug 12nd

• Today is the Fasting day with HIIT
  • my touch typing is fine, not worse or better.
    • not worse than the previous means that it will be better.
• Waste a lot of time staring still at the book, need some pointer to guide the eyes
  • I found that I waste a lot of time staring still at the text in the book I read, my eyes sometimes are lazy to work.
    • I should find some practice to make the eye muscles and focus more active.
    • At least, I will use a pointer when I read eg. a pen, a finger, etc. It will be eye-training practice simultaneously with my reading.
• Giving one thing a day to the other will make life better and more worthwhile.
  • I will give something to the other one time a day within 30 minutes. The things I give will be those I have plenty of eg. knowledge, experience, ideas, discovery, etc(not only money).

Aug 11st

• Today is my feeding day.
  • my touch typing improves after fasting for 1 day
• prolonged feeding day is not good, but prolonged fasting day is good in case of gained weight enough
  • I think I will stop doing that prolonged 3-day feeding and 2-day fasting method for a while, and turn back to do alternate day fasting
    • because my though is slower and less sharper after trying prolonged 3 continuous feeding day
    • my muscle is also weaker even though I exercise in feeding day which have plenty of protein. I think it is because exercise in fasting day have more growth hormone and anti-inflammatory effect to help keeping muscle strong.
    • I think prolonged feeding day is not good because of inflammation will cause so much weakness, but prolonged fasting is good but it is only able to do when the body weight is gain enough which mean that the best method is to do alternate day fasting with HIIT in fasting day which in the feeding day may eat more to gain weight until it is enough to do prolonged fasting.
• Flickering light deteriorates reading productivity
  • I detect flickering of light in the reading environment with pro mode in the smartphone camera.
  • I found that if I can't avoid this kind of environment, reading on the laptop display instead of kindle under the light flickering environment may be better.
• Doing meditation with a diamond cross-legged sitting posture(ขัดสมาธิเพชร) is the best
  • it will automatically make my back upright and straight.
• I found that watching English videos without subtitles gives me much more understanding than just reading a sub.
• Studying a single subject in a day (but various throughout a week) provides deeper focus and thought than studying multiple subjects in a day
  • it is like the brain needs some warm-up time to prepare the necessary brain resources for studying and some further time to enter deeper focus.

Aug 10th

• Today is my first day of fasting. Feeling tired and weak still occurs even though I ate plenty of food for 3 days and didn't exercise in the morning of the fasting day.
  • Probably, the tired feeling normally occurs in transitioning from glucose energy to ketosis, not because of exercise.
  • I found that my brain power and my focus come back when I have done fasting for 18 hours, which is the time in the transitioning of using glucose as energy to ketosis. But before that, everything seems bad.
  • Also, I still have muscle injuries even though I ate enough protein. This shows me that the persistent injury might not caused by fasting, but the muscle may need time to rest.
• For the routine, I think studying one thing a day makes me focus much better and more continuously. Also, I don't need to distract myself by counting the time for each activity which allows me to focus on study much better.
• I found that reading under a flickering light deteriorates my reading, but after I've changed the place, I can read so much better!!!
  • to detect the flickering of light, you can use pro mode in your smartphone camera.
  • it is not about weakness from fasting(with or without exercise) at all
  • also, reading routines with single or multiple subjects a day didn't concern poor study productivity.
• feel weaker, and less muscle power after prolonged feeding for 3 days
  • I feel that continuous eating for 3 days makes my muscles weaker than doing alternated day fasting. Also, I feel much dizzier and weaker in the evening.
• Tomorrow, I will stop prolonged fasting, because the day after is a holiday which will be more inconvenient to find food. Thus, I will eat tomorrow, then try fasting for 2 days again.

Aug 9th

• haven't done fasting and eaten plenty of food(5 meal a day) for 3 days
  • I found that after I didn't do fasting my cognitive function decreased
    • I have less focus on my work, an environment can distract me more?
      • not all the time, after having a meal, my focus came back
    • I can't count the number without forgetting in the middle when I exercise
    • My cognitive function & planning are a little worse, my planning ability is slower and less flexible.
    • my touch typing is worse, sometimes I can't remember where the keys are and have to take a glimpse at the keyboard
      • it may be because I forgot to place my finger in the standard position when practicing.
      • I found that when I place my finger in the standard position, I still can type a little bit faster.
  • I can read, study more, and do more things with full focus on it.
• I found that after exercise I was usually exhausted and frustrated, the weak didn't come from fasting at all.
  • But after having a meal, the weakness and bad emotions become better.
• Tomorrow, I will start doing the 2-day fasting as planned.
• Pro mode in the camera of the smartphone can detect the flickering of the lamp
  • I think the light flickering affects my reading, I found that in some places of the library that use low-quality LEDs.
  • After I have changed the place to read under fluorescent lamps my reading is so much better, no matter which subject I read.
    • However, I found later that the new place also has flickering light but it has more brightness.

Aug 8th

• Today, I do HIIT but my muscle healing is slowing down, I feel that I still have an injury. I am thinking about changing my plan for Fasting to be 3-day feeding and 2-day fasting???.
  • I think I will continue to do alternate day fasting with exercise(same method)???
• 3-day feeding and 2-day fasting
  • methods
    • on feeding day
      • eat 5 meals a day which will be equal to 15 meals per 5 days or 3 meals a day
    • exercise on the 2nd and the 3rd feeding day, not on the fasting day, which will promote muscle building because of plenty of nutrients
    • 2-day water fasting
  • calculation of benefit
    • this method has autophagy times for 24 hrs(50 hr of fasting - 24hr of time for entering autophagy = 36hr) which is 36/5= 7.2 hr on day average.
    • but alternate-day fasting has autophagy times around 8 to 10 hrs per 2 days(32 to 34 hr of fasting - 24hr of time for entering autophagy = 8 to 10 hr) which is 4-5 hr on day average.
  • advantage
    • the method may provide less exercise need because prolonged fasting can do the job(increase BDNF). 
      • which may decrease food costs
    • a smoother transition from using glucose(glycolysis) as energy to ketosis(no weakness from exercise)
    • have more reading time within ketosis compared to alternate day fasting which most time in a day is spent in weakness from transitioning from glycolysis to ketosis
  • disadvantage
    • this method has too long of feeding days which may promote more inflammation. But if you keep restricting the feeding time to 12 hours, the inflammation will be reduced.
  • do or don't?
    • Just try it! Bro!!
• I found that my English writing is gradually improving at an appreciable rate by practicing writing every day.
• Today, I ate for 4 meals I found that I can read with much more focus and have the energy to process and understand the knowledge. Maybe, food is also important. Intense exercising when fasting may not be a good combination.
  • However, My seborrheic dermatitis exists more. Eating more food makes my face produce more oil which will be the food for micro-creatures on my face(normal flora) and some of them induce my immune system to attack the skin surface causing the dermis to peel.

Aug 7th

• Today is my feeding day.
• I went outside to the university library to read.
• It seems like my eye muscle problem still remains. It hasn't completely been cured yet.
  • I couldn't read much today when I placed the tablet upright in front of me. But when I lay it down on the table I can read it more easily.
• I am not sure whether I should continue studying technical analysis or not, I lose a lot of money from trying it without having studied enough before. However, I feel like the content of this kind of book can't make me enjoy reading; it seems boring to me.
  • But if I haven't tried, I won't never truly know about it. It may be even a waste of time eventually. Unless I tried, I would never know.
  • At this time I think I have to take a break from trading for a while until I finish studying it.
• I think using a time schedule for tracking my daily activity is good, but blogging is still necessary to make me more deeply understand myself.
  • I will not spend much of my time on that time schedule, maybe just tracking, but for any other things, I will note in this blog.
• For now, I would stop reading any other things and read just the technical analysis in trading.
• I found that studying one major thing in a day is much more effective than studying many things in one day
  • it produces more focus, more thought of the lesson, and more ideas about it.
  • however, it's ok to alternate between different subjects every day.

Aug 6th

• Today, I don't go outside, I do HIIT and all-day Fasting.
• My touch typing is not as good as in the past. I don't know why.

Aug 5th

• Today is my feeding day
  • my touch typing agility is moderate, not good or bad, but slightly slow down.
    • yesterday, I slept late which may caused this unsmooth movement problem

Aug 4th

• Today I do all-day fasting with HIIT 5 min
  • I felt like I didn't have much energy and felt like my muscles were soft. It was probably because I didn't eat enough protein yesterday but too much refined carb and sugary food(esp. at the last meal at 16 hours, I only ate one sugary snack).
  • my touch typing agility is better when it is evaluated for the long term.
    • But for today, it is not different from yesterday
• I think my new time schedule method is good for tracking. But for the idea and creativity, writing the diary is still the best.
• my reading was good in the morning but after that it became worse. I think it may be because I tried drinking less water to retain electrolytes which my not the correct method. The electrolyte loss probably has to be a concern after fasting more than 24hr which is today before bedtime. So drinking plenty of water has no effect on electrolytes in the daytime.
  • I also found that I was lack of physical activities which made my body cold and inactive resulting in decreasing focus ability.
• I found that doing meditation after having a shower is so much better than doing it immediately after waking up because it feels fresh and has no sleepiness.
  • my focus and consciousness are very good.

Aug 3rd

• Today is my feeding day.
  • My touch typing agility is good
• Now, I may not write this diary much because I've changed to track my activities in the spreadsheet.

Aug 2nd

• Today I do all-day fasting and HIIT for 10 mins
  • My touch typing agility is moderate
• I tried upgrading a new version of the retrospective time schedule to track more factors and also added fixed routines with tracking.
• My meditation is so good today
  • I think it is because I slept enough(8 hrs) last night which made me wake up without sleepiness and be able to do meditation.
• I found that the original textbook of "C Language" is the best textbook for the starter, its description is very clear, simple, and effective(not drowning you with unnecessary details, but explaining straight to the concept)
• I found that after I turned back to alternate-day fasting, my English listening skills came back, I could listen to the accent more clearly than when I did only HIIT with no fasting.
  • which means that all-day fasting is still necessary and HIIT is an extension that helps boost more fasting benefits.

Aug 1st

• Today is my feeding day
  • my touch typing agility is good
  • meditation is quite not good
• my reading performance may not completely relate to eyeglasses, the organ behind my eyeballs also plays much particular role which is the brain.
  • I noticed that at today's morning even though I used my special reading glass, I still couldn't read anything but just got brain fog all the time on the bus.
  • I don't know the cause which may be some kind of ADHD that came with me when I was born. However, I found that on the day that I do the meditation I always can read all day, no matter which glasses I use.
• I tried reading a mathematics book. However, even though it is not hard and I have already read some parts of it, I just can't read it.
  • I also can't read any other books, eg. financial books.
  • it is like some kind of brain fog.
  • I am not sure if this relates to the meditation which I didn't do well in this morning.
• In the evening, my eyesight comes back!!! I can now read again and I think it is quite better than before. This implied that after doing vision therapy(I applied the Brock string method), it would also take some time for the eyes to adapt back to the special eyeglasses.
  • which means that the Brock string is effective in vision therapy.