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Diary Jan, 25

krishrong — Sat, 04 Jan 2025 14:43:54 +0000

Diary Jan, 25 krishrong Sat, 01/04/2025 - 21:43

Here is my daily routine tracking

Jan 23rd

การเจริญสติปัฏฐาน คือ หนทางเดียว ที่เป็นการพัฒนาตนเองที่แท้จริง วิธีอื่นๆบนโลก ไม่ต่างกับปลาที่ว่ายอยู่ในบ่อ ที่ถูกแหหว่านไว้ จะผุดขึ้น หรือดำลง ก็ถูกจับอยู่ในแหนั้นอยู่ดี การเจริญสติเป็นวิธีเดียวที่จะพัฒนาตนเองอย่างยั่งยืน แบบที่ไม่มีอะไรมาทำให้กลับไปเป็นเหมือนเก่าได้

Jan 21st

Why am I so addicted to computer? it may be because in my childhood, computer seems so hard to be reach, so when I have one of it, I attach and addict to it unconsciously.
- Computer have too many distraction things, not education things.
What if your life is under the influence and control of someone who is outdated and not sophisticated?
- Don't blame on the other people.
- Just seriously conform to 5 precepts of Buddhism, then your life will be much clearer from chaos or messiness, and you will find the answers by yourself.
- Then, practicing meditation and mindfulness which are the best way to develop and build your life. Especially, the mindfulness will improve your life in the fastest way because 90% of problem come from yourself, if you know more about yourself, most problem in your life will be vanished.
you indeed can't choose the correct way in life unless you have enough knowledge or experience in it.
- your early choosing is usually not much better than guessing. But use your instinct help a little bit more than only listen to the other people's advice because usually there is no one who know you better than yourself. Your instinct is the composed result of your true feeling and experience that accumulated for a long time.
Trading is probing the market with good money management.
- it is probing because no one know what it will be and where it will go.

Jan 18th

Still using the same life plan

Trading: I found that I didn't really hate trading, it is just burned out from trading without enough knowledge. I still need to learn more and more.
Programming: it is the next target after I have more stable financial status.
Dentistry: is my last insurance, in case that I made a mistake in trading again.

The 5 precepts of Buddhism is the foundation of mindfulness practice and any meditation

I found that after I conformed to the 5 precepts of Buddhism, my mindfulness practice improved even my meditation was more loose.
The order of foundation in Buddhism
- 5 Precept > Mindfulness & Meditation > Wisdom and Enlightenment
- Meditation is not a foundation of Mindfulness. It is the additional that makes the mindfulness much better.
After I seriously conformed to the 5 precepts, my consciousness came back and my mindfulness improved. My mind also become less messy. Many problems in my life also become clearer and easier to find answer.

My eye muscle problem is still prevailing.

I found that after changing to the new glasses which didn't have addition function in the lens, I got struggled in reading again. This problem occurred few days unknowingly and resulted in less pages and time that I could read per day.
Then, yesterday, I tried doing Brock's string again. And now, I can read so much better than few days ago.

Jan 14th

I think eating too much in alternate day fasting is not good at all in the long term. It cause the body so much messiness with high and prolong blood glucose which cause inert blood and prone to cancer instead of more healthy; although in the short term, its bad effect is not showed and body still capable to manage this critical stage, at some point, the body will fail to manage it and the big trouble will occur.
- Thus, I think the maximum meals that you can have in one day are four with exercise and fasting every after two eating day.
I should have good and comfortable place(at least physically) to support myself from mental trauma.

Jan 10th

The more I am older, the less passion and inspiration I have. I have so much less fun to do things. Every thing is just done as the most people do in the similar format eg. coding course, training, etc.

Jan, 4th

I feel like even though increasing feeding day and doing less fasting and do more exercise(HIIT) make my life more comfortable, I feel like the more I do fasting (with exercise) the sharper and active my thought will be.
- However, separately doing fasting or HIIT alone will not make my mind as much sharp as combining them together and doing them more frequent.

Notes

** บทความนี้อยู่ใน หมวดหมู่ บันทึกประจำวัน ซึ่งมักจะเป็นเนื้อหาที่ ยังอยู่ในระหว่างการทดลองส่วนตัว ที่ยังไม่ได้ข้อสรุป ซึ่งอาจทำให้เกิดความเข้าใจที่คลาดเคลื่อนได้ จึงขอแนะนำให้ผู้อ่านติดตาม จากเนื้อหาที่มีความเป็นปัจจุบันที่สุด โดยการคลิกที่ ลิงค์ "Tags" ที่เกี่ยวข้องด้านล่าง เพื่ออ่านบทความที่เกี่ยวข้อง ที่มีการอัพเดตล่าสุด ได้เลยครับ

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Daily Dec 24

krishrong — Sun, 01 Dec 2024 13:00:51 +0000

Daily Dec 24 krishrong Sun, 12/01/2024 - 20:00

Here is my daily routine tracking

Dec 29th

Today is my fasting day, I didn't do HIIT in the morning because I gave a blood donation two days ago.
- However, skip exercising make me feel like lacking of motivation and inert.
I have change back my main device from laptop to tablet. It is much more convenient.

Dec 28th

Going outside is so much better than stay struggle in the house(room), even though I didn't read much, there are still many things that motivated me to do my work and reading more, not just stay sedentarily and be lacking of dopamine in a little and limited square room.
- I think it is necessary for me to go outside every day. Which one who doesn't want me to go outside might not be my good friend.

Dec 24th

Today, I tried going back to do an alternate day fasting method(a day of fasting and a day of feeding). It seems like after eating a lot of food withing one meal(very high calories of refine carbohydrate), it is quite hard to maintain focus on my work and I tend to procrastinate more.
- It might not be the problem of eating method, but what I eat is a refined carbohydrate which is not good for my blood sugar consistency and focus, no matter how much I eat within a day.

Dec 23rd

I feel like there is much less idea produced and slower improvement in me when I extend my feeding day to two days instead of alternate between one day feeding and one day fasting.
- My focus and English listening skills seem decreased even I tried doing HIIT more which implied that the main key is fasting, not exercise.

Dec 18th

I think the cause of lacking inspiration in myself is that when I was a teenager, I made myself numbed to my emotion which provided me the ability to do the thing that I don't like, eg. studying for the university entrance examination. I have to stop suppress it and bring my emotion back.

Dec 17th

Yesterday, I found that using kindle scribe make me read more than reading on tablet. Maybe, it is because of the better eye comfort on e-reader.

Dec 16th

I want to bring back the previous version of myself, the one who has a lot of creativity and aspiration(even though he has not much knowledge), not the clumsy and overthinking old man like this.
I think, in trading and investment, there are also so many ways of knowledge to make money, such as Market or financial structures, Arbitrage, News, Economy, Long term value investment in stock, or even technical analysis in trading(swing trade, scalping). Every branch of them have their own principles. The "learner" shouldn't focus on making profit but focus on developing knowledge in all of those ways by enrolling for a course or reading every important book in every major branch. After studying all of their branches, then focus deeper on the way that you good at it.

Dec 14th

This is my fasting day after the two consecutive feeding day, I also do HIIT running for 10 mins(this is the 2nd day of continuous exercise, counted from yesterday).
- I am totally find. Eating 4 meals a day within 12 hr for two consecutive day didn't decrease my energetic feeling.
- I can still exercise by HIIT running though it is quite weaker in the second day.
I think I can't use my laptop much even though it is great because the main priority and productivity is reading which the laptop can't provide the convenience much.
- one problem of my laptop that inhibit my productivity is that there are too many customizable options that make me don't accept the present condition and just work, but tried to spend time upgrading and customizing my laptop.
After I resold some of my stuffs, collected some funds and going back to the investing market(not trading), I found myself more energetic like I am doing some meaningful work to my own life.
- Finance may be my secondary interests, apart from programming

Dec 13rd

Today is my 2nd feeding day, I eat around 3 meals.
I tried reading from laptop screen and found that reading on tablet is so much better. I don't know why, maybe my tablet screen(huawei matepad 11.5s) has eye comfort features.

Dec 12nd

I found that in the past I buy a lot new stuff just for trying new things(and usually found them redundant), I found that it is very superfluous because some of them I barely used it. I feel so guilty to the earth that I am the one who destroy the environment.
- I have to sell my stuff as 2nd handed.
- I won't buy any new thing any more.

Dec 10st

I am considering to extend the feeding day to two day and fasting for one day. It is because in the only one feeding day period I have to eat so much in one day(at least 5 meals) which also decrease my sleep quality, my mood stability, overload to my intestine and also increase inflammation(by high blood glucose).
- I would eat 4 meals a day for 2 days and then do all day fasting for one day.
- For exercise, I would try exercise(HIIT) in the 2nd day of feeding and the fasting day.

Dec 9th

I haven't wrote blog for a while but my life was not that bad; at this time, my life is gradually better because I have more knowledge to manage my limited dopamine reserve in every day, so I can study well at both programming that I love and dentistry that I'm usually bored.
I also have less argument with my mom. Because I could focus better on Dentistry(though I also study programming) which is what my mom want. Having no stressful argument is very good for mental health for me and my mom.
- And I also read Tripitaka that teach me about doing bad things(eg. talk bullying to each other) never be able to cause good results. Also, doing good things(eg. not saying bad thing to each other) will never cause bad results.
However, what I notice is that I focus less on my language skill, and its fluent is also dropped. I feel it is quite harder to communicate in English.
- What I have missed is practicing. So, I have to continue more practicing.
I notice that after the day that I did combination of HIIT exercise(running) and all day fasting(33-36 hrs), I can listen to English language much clearer.

Dec 7th

I found that in the day that I go exercise(running outside), I will write my blog. But if I stay home or haven't exercise for a while, I usually don't write my blog. It may be because the idea usually come with exercise.

Dec 6th

I have already changed my eye glasses to plastic glasses frame which has more narrow nose bridge(15 mm) which fit perfectly with my thin shape nose. It doesn't require any further adjustment like all of my previous glasses which some of them took more than a month to fit it to my face.
I followed this guideline it help me so much.
- I don't waste my time(30min-1hr a day) to adjust my glasses frame any more and my focus is so much better.
I sell off my unfrequently used stuffs to gain more money for living a little bit longer
Reading Tripitaka is so great. It contains the correct way to live that is suitable for everyone.

Dec 4th

I found that gaming is a waste of time, even more than watching movies or anime because these things still give you some knowledge and creativity. But for gaming, especially when struggling in a game with no progress, it is really a waste of time.

Dec 3rd

Yesterday is my feeding day, I ate around five meal but didn't eat late night, I found that it make me more energetic and fresh.

Dec 2nd

Today, I tried going back to the nature to reset my dopamine by spending time walking around 30 minutes in the park without phone using. It caused me realized that I shouldn't play game, it does no benefit to my life, neither present nor future.
- For stress reduction, nature healing is far more better than gaming or any entertainment.

Dec 1st

I lost myself for 3 days in a game addiction. But the knowledge of dopamine help me getting myself out from this dead spiral situation.
- I also lost my health routine(no exercise, fasting) because of an autopilot life which was caused by the depletion of dopamine by gaming.
- But eventually, I am glad that I could come back and continue write my daily log again.
- I think I have to show up outside. It is always better than just staying inside the room all day which mostly(always) prones to procrastination. Even though going outside is sometimes hard and tiresome, it is always much more productive and more life progress.

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Life learning Nov 24(สิ่งที่ได้เรียนรู้)

krishrong — Fri, 08 Nov 2024 03:30:17 +0000

Life learning Nov 24(สิ่งที่ได้เรียนรู้) krishrong Fri, 11/08/2024 - 10:30

Nov 28th

Always improving yourself, gaining more knowledge. These will make your life really exuberant and prosperous. Don't target at money which will give you nothing and emptiness heart eventually.

Nov 27th

If you know yourself, you will be able to control yourself. If you can control yourself, you will be able to control everything in your life.
Always be humble will make you be able to fit in with every place and every people.

Nov 20th

Don't pursuit for your own happiness, it's always not enough. Just learn to live with the things you already have and do good things for other people.
Life can't be built in just a few year, it takes quite a long time and consistency.

Nov 19th

Knowledge is a very precious thing! In some period of trading that I met with lossing streak I found that after I go back to revise my Technical analysis textbook. I can come back to make profit again.
- I would like to read anything as much as I can in my lifetime.

Nov 15th

exercise stimulate neuron growth
- https://neurosciencenews.com/exercise-neuron-growth-28021/

Nov 14th

There are two type of people in this world, people who support you and people who blame you. If you put yourself around people who support you, you always get their support. Conversely, If you put yourself around people who hate you, no matter you do, they always blame you. Especially, if you surround yourself with bad people, even your parent can also be, you will surely think that this world is bad. Just avoid and go away from those bad people.
If you feel sad or angry, go running or do any exercises.
A failure that worth to achieve
- I found that fasting further more make me more humble, less aggressive. It occured from the failure that I just don't have enough money in that day to afford food(nearly broke from trade). By the way, I think this failure has something good in it(worth to achieve).

Nov 10th

There is nothing that human effort can't reach.

Nov, 9th

Many intelligence guys who failed in their life often caused by wrong belief that teach by the moderate intelligence people that the money is the target in people life instead of chasing their precious dream.

Nov, 8th

DO WHAT EVER YOU WANT! You are just someone in the other people's life. It is not necessary to care for the other. (But make sure that what you do is still within the moral and law principle, that doesn't harm the others)

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Daily Nov 24

krishrong — Sun, 03 Nov 2024 07:48:03 +0000

Daily Nov 24 krishrong Sun, 11/03/2024 - 14:48

My daily activity tracking

Nov 29th

Yesterday, I spent all time in day playing a game in my room. No any productive, new idea, or etc occurs. I've realized that it is no matter how good the game is(perfect system, epic story), gaming is still one kind of addiction
- Like, it is no matter how high the new recreational drug is, it is still a recreational drug which will deteriorate people life.
In the morning, I didn't programming(the thing that I love to do). I found that, in the day, I am lack of motivation and focus to read dentistry(Thing that I didn't love, but can do). It may be because of the lack of dopamine boost from the flow state in doing the thing you love.

Nov 27th

Yesterday, I didn't go outside. There wasn't much productive. Even though I did some programming, procrastinating prevailed more.
I still can't read constantly and usually mess with my eyeglasses and eye muscle problems.
I found that after I played game in the morning, in the later morning, I can't focus on reading. But then I tried increased my dopamine by resting among the nature, after that I can read very well.

Nov 26th

I have a lot of issues with eye glasses fame that is not properly fit with my face. These problems wasted a lot of time in my life and also affect my focus. Especially, because it is an adjustable metal frame, so I wasted a lot of time (and money) adjusting it.
- Unfitting plastic frame causes the same problems too.
- But I think if I choose the right plastic frame at the beginning, there will be no problem any more.
- However, I should wait for more time that my financial status is more stable before buying another one. Or the other choice is to eat less(4 meals + grain in the feeding day and fasting another day) and stop exercise for a while.

Nov 25th

I think I still need to practice english by writing this blog. I found that it has potential to improve my speaking skill by faster producing the sentences.
Dr. Alok Kanojia has change my life. He drawed me up to the much better life path.
Dark mode is always better for screen, no matter which the environments are, the light emitted directly from the screen tired the eyes the most.

Nov 22th

Why You Feel Lost in Your 20s

Nov 20th

I think I have to do the meditation while I am still fasting, before any breakfast, because while I am still staying in the prolonged fasting, the BDNF in my brain is high which is good for practicing new thing. But after eating, BDNF may decrease and cause less effective improvement or even worse to my meditation.
Why when I read programming, I can get through the content so fast with a lot of focus and full of fascinated and motivated feeling. I feel like it is so fun and such a classic.
- But when I read dentistry, I have to try so hard to be able to focus continuously, no any motivation.
Today, I stay home and my reading productivity get struggled again. However, I thought back to yesterday that I also struggle at reading though I went out side.
- Does that mean my eye muscle problem occurred again?

Nov 19th

Yesterday, I didn't go outside but stay in my room which end up as didn't read anything. Thus, in stead of procrastination, I spent time tidy my room and rearrange my working desks for future productivity and the result is great!
In these day, I found that my medication is worse. It has been occurred since I had soy protein in the morning or I didn't open the fan while doing meditation which made me sit uncomfortably.

Nov 18th

good videos
- ADHD vision https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eq2qtpU1Ox4
- Nofab and brain https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8LjNUabIJOk

Nov 17th

I will still continue reading dentistry because it is a precious thing and to diversify risk, not because of pressure from my bullying toxic mother
I think I am just an idiot that try a lot to be smarter. It may improve a little bit but the main function hasn't changed much. It is great that I improved myself, but I have to realized that the core improvement might have a limitation and need long time to improve. Even though I can read unlimitedly, the brain power to process the knowledge may need time to improve.

Nov 16th

My mother said that I would never be success from any financial investment eternally.
- Is her eternal forecast the truth?
  - Not at all, the truth is that I was psycologically bullied by her which cause me to doubt myself and decide incorrectly, though my first plan was definitely correct.
  - She never want to know what I have done, how many book I read, how I study or etc. She just wanted me to live all my life as she planned me to have which is doing a labor well paid job, no chance to go outside or study any others. She just wanted my life to be fail in the way she don't want.
  - She just like an elder who stay at home and doesn't know herself that she has been already outdated, declined, and aging.
  - I shouldn't trust her at all. Trusting her or any other people than Textbook or reuters is my own stupidity.
Is my frusturated feeling caused by eating too much yesterday?

Nov 15th

My reading progress so much when I read under non-flickering/natural light.

Nov 14th

exercise stimulate neuron growth
- https://neurosciencenews.com/exercise-neuron-growth-28021/
My english listening skill improve a little bit. Yesterday, I do HIIT with all day fasting.
Today, I eat only one meal because of I nearly have no money left. I think eat restriction also have benefit in more clear mind, more self focus, less distraction, and be truely yourself(hear yourself more).

Nov 13rd

I found that my bad mindset(angry to the world) come from my toxic mother, she never support me, but just want the immediate result to fullfill herself without wanting to understand my real problem.
- I think I have to pretend to be a loser in front of my mom, esp. when she peck me. Also, just flatter her with by go her think, her opinion until she die.
I found that in the week that I do hiit run more frequent I will trade better, not the week that I do only fasting. But if I combine both exercise and fasting, it will be the best.
Reading dentistry textbooks give me a lot of valuable knowledge and technique, this is why my toxic previous work place didn't want me to do this.
- I also tried a lot to be better, but no one appreciate me and always blame me for the faults. Instead, from my view, they do a lot of wrong thing that they even didn't realize.
I found that reading medical book contain a lot of detail which I can't remember it. I can remember only the concept
- Active recall and space repetition will help
Avoid from distraction

Nov 12nd

Is money really my goal? or it is my mom or any other people goal's
I found that reading on screen in dark mode make me able to read all day without eye fatigue which is great.

Nov 11st

I found that reading on screen in dark mode produce much less fatigue on my eyes.
I quite worry for my financial stability, my fund is left around 3-5 months. If I can't generate some cashflow by working, or even trading, I will surely have a huge problem.
- However, trading is such a long term possibility game. It is not suitable for immediate cashflow generating.
- what I should do next?
  - Read the dentistry textbooks and seriously go back to work as a old noob within a next few months
  - Try finding new job that may be more easy to me such as the waiter, cashier, etc.
  - Go out as a beggar or homeless.
I found that my annoyed mood didn't occur after I decreased my meal times(from 6 to 4) in a day.(I used to do alternate day fasting with 6 meal in feeding day which is too much and cause my body inflamed instead of making it better.)
- 4 meals for 2 days(with push up and sit up exercise separately in each day) and then fasting for 1 day(with HIIT run on fasting).

Nov 10th

After I've come back to read some dental textbooks, I think it is quite fun and quite enjoy it.
- It may be because of my better eye sight(eye muscle condition), after doing vision therapy
- now I feel like I can do anything from programming, trading, investing, health
In monkolla suta(มงคล 38), that firstly said about don't associated with bad people. The meaning could refer to toxic, bully, or even people who believe in fallacy things. It can be even your parents, family member, friend, etc.
- Even they used to do good things for you. Eventually, they can make you deeply desperate and ruin your life.

Nov 9th

I have determined, my life must be better than those low intelligence people in very easy ways. I will create it by myself and my self-improvement. I will not be the subject or puppet of those stupid people any more. I will live my very true high intelligence life.

Nov 8th

Yesterday I had 6 meal. I found that eating too much in one day make my body health worse which results in bad mood on the fasting day
- I am sure that the bad mood didn't come from HIIT exercise because I didn't do it today.
- if it comes from eating too much in one day, it might mean that eating much cause inflammation to the body and result in micro injury which causes sick-liked feeling, bad mood and be annoyed easily.
If an anti-inflammation is the first priority, I probably should eat 4 meals a day(within 6 hours period) for 2 day then fasting all day for one day.
- and I will alternate the exercise methods between one day push up with sit up, and one day HIIT running.

Nov 7th

After i loosened the ear piece of my eye glasses which cause the lens farther from my eye(lower the lense diopter), my reading ability came back. I am so glad with this. My eye still require the lens to be at the farther length
- Now, I can read while I am walking which is a good sign of coming back of my reading ability.

Nov 6th

I do all day fasting today, but having 6 meals for 14 hour eating periods yesterday didn't increase my exercising performance, but it prones to eating late night which cause poorer sleep and worse health.
- I think the better method is to just eat within 12 hrs(usually 5 meals+ whey soy protein) and don't eat late night esp. avoid eating 2 hours before the sleep time.
I have tried no fap for a week. The result is so fantastic, I can focus so much better on my work and study. The surrounding environment has less effect on me esp. the opposite gender. The following are the techniques.
- Don't consume the media such as videos or movies that has content about sex and especially porn videos
- Don't touch the genital area even though while there is a libido
- Don't do a masterbation
- Commit the eight precepts of buddism(ศีล 8) at least every other day.
It is such a pity that I just live by staring at the chart price, but many great people live a life making great thing, even though they met obstacles, they use the knowledge to pass through them, not finding the shortcut to get easy money.
- Are they successful because of luck? not at all, they do it by themself, they chose to fight with the problems in their life.
- They chose to fight with the problem and not looking for the easy shortcut(like spending time monitoring the chart).
  - They don't spending time watching the chart and pretending it is their work but do real work for their own company that contain their own stocks.
- easy money will result in paying with your entire life time and your dream.
- You can never do the great thing to the world just by staring at the chart for the entire life. It may have some benefits but if you comparing the benefit that it produce to this world such as innvations, etc. with the time it waste, it is very small and not worth to do at all!!!
- This failure in my life is one example of not doing well studying or researching before jumping into it.
- But I still keep studying everything I will be not closed my mind.
Today, I tried adjust my glasses to be farther from my eye, I found that make me reading so much better(I have met an issue with my reading again since I adjusted my glasses to be nearer to my eye)
- The problem may be caused by the flickering light because after I've changed to read under natural light, though it is not the well control environment, my reading is better esp. than under the well control but with flickering light environment.

Nov 5th

I think my english is gradually improving very well after I have been practicing of using it by writing for a while.

Nov 4th

I think I should quit trading because it is not the productive job that can improve life or thought over the time passed. My life is more valuable than this.
- I will do it as my side job in case that it doesn't have any effect on my life or my main job.
I have some doubt about my mom
- she wants me to go back in my well paid job
- she knows that I was bullied by the toxic working environment and colleagues before I chose to resign.
- I said that I still have a chance to go back to work that well paid job because the failure is not my fault but need some times for preparation because this work cause a lot impact to people life esp. if the worker is careless or don't have well knowledge.
- she still often blame me on my loser life and doesn't support me(though she can do it easily) the time or the emotion I need
- she said that it is okay if I go to work as the lower paid waiter in some fast food shops to be able to give her some little money
- Such a pity! Maybe my mom is also a toxic person.
- However, she still support me in a few things such as food and place.
Today, I found that in the running with HIIT, the technique is to run like there is a tiger or a monster chasing you. It produces a lot of huge breath, faster entering ketosis(burn fat) and my meditation is so much better(focus and calm).
This is good https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eq2qtpU1Ox4 it tells about the ways to manage ADHD

Nov 3rd

I think I shouldn't blame the other people(those toxic colleagues) for my failure of my previous career path. Because it is not hard for me to come back distinguishly by just reading those good textbooks.
- Now it is my problem(not to blame the past) that will I read them or not, ortherwise read the other subjects.
- However, my trading is currently win for 10 day streaks(2 weeks) continuously, it is an early sign of success from hard working and studying of all year.
And also my failure is the good time to prove which one is the true friends.
- People who never ask for your problem, but only judge you from their view is certainly not your friend.
I found that reading from the display screen make me read less than reading from real paper material or an e-reader.
- or may be it is because I didn't read the thing that I like. What I should do is to...
  - compare reading between on paper(or e-reader) and on screen
  - compare reading on screen but different subject
  - or maybe it is because I just adjust my glasses position that requires some additional times for adaptation.

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สิ่งที่ได้เรียนรู้ Oct 24

krishrong — Sat, 19 Oct 2024 07:00:14 +0000

สิ่งที่ได้เรียนรู้ Oct 24 krishrong Sat, 10/19/2024 - 14:00

Oct 21th

8 precepts of Buddhism is like mental detoxification
- it exclude the outside distracting environment and help you focus and consider on yourself.
Sometimes, don't have somethings may be better. For example, someone who has no friend may think that having a friend may be happier. However, in reality, who knows? that having some friends will be good and provide a better life especially if that friend is not a good person.

Oct 19th

It is not about you are able or not able to be a master in something esp. when you think you are not born to be. It is just all about you have knowledge of it or not. If you have correct knowledge especially from reading the good textbooks, it is sure that you can be the master or expert in it(no need to thing about lacking of talent, courage, etc).
- eg. You want to be a medical professional. It is not about courage or coward to correctly treat the patients. It is about you have true knowledge about it or not.
- eg. You want to be a successful trader. It is not about how much intelligent you are to figure out the market action. It is about you have true proper knowledge(by reading a lot of books with critical thinking) and mindset about it or not.
If you obcess in something, eventually you will become successful at it.
Be humble solve your life problem faster and much easier than be egoist which mean it can save so much of your life time and energy. However, this can only be used with the small problem that doesn't have much effect on your life.

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Daily Oct 24

krishrong — Wed, 02 Oct 2024 14:41:38 +0000

Daily Oct 24 krishrong Wed, 10/02/2024 - 21:41

Oct 31th

Now, I can wake up earlier with more energy after I didn't have a dinner but have exercise(HIIT) in every other day.
Discipline is very important in life not only in trading
- when you are lazy, you are wasting your valuable future resource which is time

Oct 30th

Last night, I slept so much better after I did HIIT exercise. I'm not sure that is it about sleeping with empty stomach(fasting), but even though I did it for several times, there is no anything good but just the day I went exercise that the better sleep and fresh wake up happen.
Today, I will try 8 precepts of buddhism(with 3-4 meals) and continue for 3 day
My trading has just got much better after I can control myself. It is around 5 day streaks that I can make profits everyday with my simple trade strategy. In the past, even though I can make profit with this strategy but I can't control myself to stop overtrade and overrisk so I lost a lot from my poor self-control.
With my success from trading, it is nearly the time to learn programming!!!! as I always want or dream to.
I have to forgive to myself that I wasn't honest to myself in the past when I was choosing between computer engineer and oral-health professional.
- Even though my inspiration and the target of all of my perseverance was computer but finally I chose oral-health, which hurt myself.
- I am sorry to myself about that. I will forgive myself and do what my heart or my instinct tell me.

Oct 29th

I think I will stop doing alternate day fasting because it is too hard for my body to eat a lot(at least five meal in one day)
- Instead, I would try
  - eating 4 meals a day for 3 days then fasting for one day.
  - I will eat within 6 hours, still doing IF18/6
  - At least every other day, I will do the 8 precepts of buddhism.
  - Also I will do HIIT running every other day.
and now I stop caffeine because it reduce cerebral blood flow which results in reduce cognitive function
Today, I stay home and don't go outside. I found that there is not much productive, I just stay still and didn't do anything.
- A trick is that don't do multitasking, when you are reading, just close every thing that is unrelated.

Oct 23rd

Today, I go outside and read under non-flickering light environment. I can focus so much better. There is no any anxiety-liked symtoms unlike reading under the flickering light environment.
I also found that eating 2 days continuously without fasting make my mind less sharper.
- I think eating 5 meals in feeding day and then fasting another day is the most suitable unless exercise.
I also found that in these periods that I haven't exercise for a while, my ideas also came out lesser.

Oct 22nd

After I did the 8 precepts of buddhism, I felt like the entertainment things in my life are such a waste of time and boring. They just wasted the time in my life without any benefit gained.
- While I was doing the 8 precepts, I usually craft for the entertainment in my mind, but after finishing the 8 precepts and tried those entertainments I found that it is just boring and waste of time.
There may be no easy way to be rich without time, effort, obcession, and love in the thing you do.
Today I read under flickering light and again I couldn't read well, and it also made my eye red.
I must love myself though my mom want me to die because I can't make any benefit esp. money for her. I didn't do anything wrong. I always just try to solve my life problem. My mom is wrong that her greed control me to go within her chosen path.
- Love myself, there are a lot of valuable things in me.

Oct 21st

Even the 8 precepts of Buddhism is good, but I could do it every other day(not every day)
I am still so very easy to be disturbed and annoyed, I am trying alternate day fasting again.
- I also found that my daily life time was spended for entertainment in very large ratios to my total daily time. Trying 8 precepts of buddhism help me so much to stop my procrastination.

Oct 20th

8 precepts of Buddhism is like mental detoxification
this is the second day that I do 8 precepts of Buddhism
- I feel like my responsibility of life is increasing, I read much more and more books, instead of spending time watching the movies, anime or social media.
- I think it is good if I keep doing it every other day, not every day because I still want some entertainment. I may do it with alternate day fasting.
Today, I still able to read a lot. Also at the end of the day, my eye turn red. I think it is because I blink less when reading from screen.

Oct 19th

The best things may not be the best for you but are the thing that suitable you the most.
Today I will do 8 precepts of buddhism
My reading is so much better under non-flickering light.

Oct 18th

I think I will try 8 precept of buddhism again after watched Bryan Johnson video
- eating before 1pm let the body digest food completely

Oct 17th

Today, I've just got nose running from air allergy and narrowed nostril. It may be because I eat too much of fine carbohydrate in just one meal(650 kcal of fine carb/a half of bread loaf), too much blood sugar promotes inflammation and allergy.
I found that after I do vision therapy for a while, it turns out that I can read on glasses with normal correction but can't read on under corrected glasses.
- Or may be it is because I read under flickering light which caused my eye fatigue faster which helps improve sleep quality so much.

Oct 16th

Today, I stay home and heal my body with all day fasting.
- yesterday I ate 4 meals ending at 3pm.
- It usually makes me feel better and have more time to consider myself and my life.
I found that eating 5 meals in one day might deteriorate my reading, focus, productivity in the following day even though that day is the fasting day. Conversely, if I eat 4 meals, I can still reading and focus well in another day.
I have a question about why such a miserable or misfortune occurs on me. It might be because I had some wrong mindsets that made me miss out some important things.
- I usually procrastinate which may be caused by the bad condition of my eye muscle(over convergence at near). Even though it is not my self-made mistake and not what I want it to be, the bad effect is unevitable.
It has already been one year since I spent my life chasing the unproductive work which is trading.
- I haven't any profit and even lost 90% of my savings (I am broke now :S).
- However, what I get one things which is a self learning technique that is just reading the best books in the field can help you so much in learning the things you want to know even though you are not born to be, gifted or talented.
- I think it is nearly end and I have to turn back to my old work and may be studying other thing(eg. coding).

Oct 15th

Combining Fasting, Meditation and exercise(HIIT) are so good for my adhd, my adhd symptops gradually decrease with in 1-3 months. i don't need caffeine any more
Today my reading is not going well again, because yesterday I didn't do vision therapy.
Trading business is not good at all, may be I have to turn back to my old job.

Oct 14th

Today, I stay home and fasting all day. And just stay sedentarily.
- not much productivity occur.

Oct 13rd

Today I go running in the morning (HIIT method). I found that after running I can follow my routine better and my thought is also much more active
This is the third day that I've not done Alternate day fasting. But I still feel active in my thought and energized by doing HIIT running(with some better than only fasting).
I forgot to do meditation in the morning. The result is that I feel a little bit annoying all day.
Today, I found a merchant who didn't get any academic degree but can speak English with a foreigner so much fluent than me(even I can read english document). Which might means that my poor unfluent language may be not my fault, it may be because of some defect in my brain.
You will understand how important the money is when you have to use it, but you don't have it.
I found that after I go out running again I can focus much better, eg. listen to the english song and can recognise the word better.

Oct 12nd

when you obscess with one thing eg. learning new language, learning news skills, studying trade and investment, you will become successful at it eventually.
I'm thinking about eating 4 meals a day for 3 day then fasting all day for one day. Although the fasting time is decrease, the eating is not too much for digestion capacity of body which may be more healthier, instead of binge eating which will affect metabolic health and inflame body in the long run.
- Then doing exercise for every other day by HIIT (running) for 10min.
I notice that after the day that I ate too much (5 meals), in the next day, my reading will get worse. It might be because of inflammation that eating too much did to my body.
However, today I tried eating again and observe the change to my body, my mental health.The following are what I've noticed
- For the issue of worse reading ability caused by eating too much yesterday. Eating today doesn't make my reading better which means the problem that made my reading worse is not about lack of energy. It is the problem of inflammation from eating too much.
- Eating too much yesterday also made my mental health worse.
I think I shouldn't have a coffee, it causes me to be more hyperactivity and making impulsive decisions

Oct 11st

My reading is so much better, after I do vision therapy every day.
- At the present I can seriously read all day! Even though I am not quite familar to it and also make me tired and littlely burn my weight, it is good as it should be.
  - But I have to continue doing vision therapy for a while until I am sure that I will be not relapse.
  - However, I find that I still can read only for a half of a day, I still have to do vision therapy for quite longer period.
For the sake of my english speaking skills, I think I should practicing and improve my confidence by reading book outloud. Although I don't take to anyone, uttering the words from my mouth is the point.

Oct 10th

When I was broke from undisciplined trade, I ate only 4 meals(4hr) and fasting over another day(44hr). Eating less and fasting more give me several ideas to survive which make me figure out many more things in in trading.
- I also turned back to read my favourite book: The Art of Currency trading. It gave me the answer to my enormous loss which was the undiscipline trading.
- I also found that it give me better in sense of smelling
I think I will make a donation every other day with a little bit of money. Our life time is not much to just make donations only in important events.

Oct 9th

I've just thinking back to the past. My life shouldn't be good like this if I haven't study Dhamma(Buddhist principle). Everything good things that I've got in my life is so much better than I should expect. And also, all bad things I've got are what I deserve.
- So just admit what I have to do and live peacefully, even though it isn't what I want, is the best life that I can get.

Oct 8th

Beware of my mom's mindset, she is not a wise or sophisticated person.
It seems like my reading ability comes back, my eye muscle problem subsided after I continued doing vision therapy(Brock's string).
- after my reading better, my thought and my language are also better, because my brain gain more a lot of information

Oct 5th

At the several previous days, I tried alternate day fasting and eat only 4 meals and didn't exercise
- this make my muscle and power decreased
I found that after having done vision therapy again, brock string, for 2 days, I can read so much smoother.

Oct, 2nd

I found that my muscle problem is still prevailing because when I tried reading with one eye closed, I found that I can read smoother and easier than two eyes open.

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Trading Oct. 24

krishrong — Tue, 01 Oct 2024 05:59:24 +0000

Trading Oct. 24 krishrong Tue, 10/01/2024 - 12:59

Trading diary

Oct 31th

At the time that I realized trading is a kind of gambling, I trade with more tight discipline and less emotions. Because I know that it is the possibility that will make me win this game in the long run, not by some special particular time. Thus, every trade will always be the same eg. even all time high, major economic news, more market participant, or etc.
- Even though you get huge profit from overrisk, it is meaningless to your career longevity.
- But the profit from high reward:risk ratios or high win rates are the real meaningful of your trading system. Which it comes from having true knowledge and understanding in the chart analysis

Oct 29th

Trading in every day is always the same, no any day that is special than the other(eg. all time high), always use the same risk
The best strategy when enter the trade in sideway market is entered by counteract the direction of the present candle stick and adjust stoploss to protect the fund
- this will help decrease the length of stop loss required in the high volatility of range trading which results in lower risk usage with possibility to use the same position size as same as trading when there is a trend(no need to decrease to reduce risk).

Oct 26th

sometimes, when a company has released new innovation, but after that the stock falls down(sell the fact), it is usually the good time for buy the dip, because the stock price usually rises back to the previous level after that good company later releases some the following good news.

Oct 24

Going outside made my trade worse because of unthoughtful decision and uncontrolable/distracted environment
The most important thing in trade is self-control. The knowledge and skills is also important but lesser. Because without self-control, even though you can make profit from trade, it will turn out in loss eventually.
- Even the trader with less skills but more better self-control can make more constant profit in the long run.

Oct 21

It is possible to be wrong in many trade but you can prevent loss by adjust trailing stop at least to cover your fund. And repeating this many time there will be at least one correct trade that will made profit for you.
- Before adjust trailing stop, always waiting for closed price before adjust it.

Oct 20

Don't predict the chart, just read it.

Oct 16th

The combination of trendline and SnR zone with dow theory is the best strategy
After I realized that trading is one kind of gambling(but with knowledge will help increase winning odds), I can manage myself and also my risk so much better.

Oct 15th

Doing trading diary is so good, it help me follow my discipline. Good trading diary must be able to help traders reflect themself.
Down spiral in Trading crypto is that the cost of trading(fee and commission) is high(as double of gold), so if I want more profit I have to double the risk which deteriorate my mental and mindset and result in over risk and over trade with big loss.
- 2 times of cost of trading decrease leverage opportunity in half, resulting in half less profit!!!
- 2 times of cost of trading also results in using double risks to gain the same profit.
In sideway, the good strategy is short term trade and don't expect any long profits. or the best is not to trade
Today I lost a lot from an impulsive and unintentional trade. Trade only closed price will be so valuable.
The new strategy is charting everything from large TF to small TF and also placing trendline and SnR zone along any TF
Don't fix TF, any TF can be used, but the principle is to analyzing from large to small TF respectively.

Oct 14th

Forex trading cost is so much less than crypto, so it can leverage more at position opening which is far more better than crypto
Trading on a laptop is so much better than on a tablet, there are a lot of useful tools
use a large(Week) time frame and go through all asset charts, then change to the smaller TF(d,h4,h1) and repeat the process again until to the smallest TF(m5)
- use Trendline and SnR zone along with charting in any TF
1st step - screen the chart in Big TF(W, D) with Trendline, SnR zone
2nd step - go to smaller TF(h1,m5) - screen again with Trendline, SnR zone
always waiting for closed price is so valuable

Oct 13rd

Major pillar of trading
- knowledge - Technical and fundamental analysis
- risk management
  - over risk
  - over trade
- Mental health
Trading is not a game of chasing market, it is a game that focusing on yourself.

Oct 12nd

I found my bad crypto trade usually came from trading on phone because it allows impulsive and reckless decision, so I change using my binance app on phone to my tablet which has a better environment and tool that composes me to think more carefully.
For Crypto, cost of trading is so high and there is less price volatility than Gold, the best strategy is trade less frequent with larger position size.
The advantage of asia time is that you can enter position at the best price before the trend is coming in US time, the disadvantage is that it may take quite long time to wait and stress your mental health.

Oct 11st

Self assessment&analysis
- Good
  - This week I analyzed all charts with Day and Week TF, it worked like a charm. Then trade in 5m TF to make use of risks as efficient as possible.
    - this strategy can constantly made profit
- Flaw
  - I over trade and over risk(mostly) which make all of my profits neutralized.
For the trading assets that have low cost to trade(low spread and commission free), especially Gold, the more frequent trade is possible, at least close the position to keep profit and reenter it when it is suitable.

Oct 10th

Chart analyzing in day&week TF provides the most reliable trade for all assets. But for entering position you can use as small TF as you prefer eg. 5min, 1h.
Only the disciplined trader will be success.

Oct 9th

I found that TF day is so much better for trade.
The only one factor that make me broke is over trade and over risk(undisciplined).
The successful trader is not the one who is the most brillant, but the most disciplined trader.
- The most brilant trader can still be broke, if he doesn't has discipline.
It should not be trade many asset in one single time because all assets' price usually rise and fall in the same simultaneous rhythm, if the trades are placed in the rhythm which were wrong, all of them would have a high change of stop out.
- The better strategy is trading only one asset at a time and if it is stop out wait for a while(4 hours) before enter the trade again.

Oct 8th

I am broke again, this is a real broke. Although directional trading seems works but it still has a lot of uncertainty. I always have to protect myself(my fund).
The real problem that deteriorated my mindset and strategy is that I want to become rich as fast as possible so I overtrade and overrisk.
- So, one of the most important thing that no one told me(because I have no coach) and I always have to tell to myself is "Don't hurry, everything need time to build". 4
In case that unable to access to the good source of news, use a week or a month timeframe to determine the trend. It works like a charm! Use the trend from previous weeks, not the current week

Oct 5th

I think directional trade with day Time frame is better than any other smaller time frames. Those smaller time frame should be used as entering the position or sideway day trade?
I tried my risk diversification strategy again but get a lot of loss, it seems like it doesn't work?
- But today I've just got little profit from directional trade.
Price action is elastic like, especially in SnR zone
Market have no mercy, just strict to risk control to protect yourself and your mental health.
- Greedy is not wrong, trading is a selfish game, but always have a proper risk management to your strategy no matter it is high risk or low risk.
Price actions will always have interactions with trendline and SnR zone either in bullish or bearish way(no one know, until it break or rebound). And it is not a matter which trendline you see, it always have interactions.

Oct 4th

I blowed up my trade account again, I place stop loss with wrong principles. It is too tight, even though the trade direcition is not wrong, it still blow up my account.

Oct 3th

principle in trading is to
- use just a small amount of money in an exchanging of a larger amount of money
- Go with the trend, don't predict market
  - Go with the trend - mainly using dow theory(HH-HL=uptrend, LH-LL=downtrend) to trade with the direction of existing trend in the time frame that is watching
  - Don't predict the market - it is too hard to analyze and predict the market with human brain and the result in the long run is usually not much good. it doen't use brain energy efficiently in such this unproductive work(trading has no real benefit to this world)
- trendline and snr zone is like the place on the map(for resting or pausing for a while), but the direction of trend is still need dow theory
- trade as much asset as you can to diversify risk
- Trade stupidly, just simply identify the trend, like a 6-years old child watches the chart using dow theory
- Trading is not a thing that you should waste your thought or brain energy. It is just an identification of trend by using dow theory and probability of effect from trendline or SnR zone that will not stop out your position and risk diversification by trade as many asset as you can.
- Again, trade stupidly, don't waste much of brain energy in trading. Instead, use the brain energy for the real productive thing in your life such as your precious real work, hobbies you enjoy that have real benefits to the world.

Oct 3rd

I found that the Dow theory is the best principle in chart reading. Just HH-HL is in an uptrend and LH-LL is in a downtrend, and just stupidly trade with the trend.
- Trendline and SnR zone are just the location on the map(also important), but the direction of price is identified by Dow theory.

Oct 2nd

When I found that trading in the day is so hard, it is probably because I bias on the wrong side. The most easiest is trend following with dow theory
- when the price still make Higher high, higher low, it should be bias uptrend.
- when the price is making Lower high, Lower low, it should be bias downtrend.
We shouldn't have emotion with the market action because it is not us who can create the price action. Having emotion either stress or too much joy usually comes from using too much risk.
When adding to the win position, the stop loss should be at further price than the entry price so that even the position added, there is no addition loss or even zero loss.

Oct 1st

I found that coffee probably ruin my trade, it creates emotional instability causing me unable to make a decision thoroughtly. There is a research showed that it may cause a brain unable to compensate to sleep deprivation which result in brain volume shrinkage. My important life decision can't rely on just drinking this beverage.

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krishrong — Sun, 22 Sep 2024 05:50:33 +0000

สิ่งทีได้เรียนรู้ Sep 24 krishrong Sun, 09/22/2024 - 12:50

Sep 28th

Knowledge is a magic of human being. It can give you anything you want eg. Money, Good health and quality of life, New ideas and innovations.
Our life is not the fighting against each other, but our own klesha(lust, angryness, delusion)
- Don't chase or look for arguments it will slow down your life progress, only the stupid do that. Especially, don't argue with the more stupid people than you, it is just a waste of time and hugely slows down your life progress.

Sep, 22nd

Boasting is conversely related to knowledge that the person has, the more knowledge the person have, the less they bloat. It is because boasting is the feeling that they think they have enough or plenty of knowledge which in the reality it is never enough, so if they boast, they have a wrong mindset.

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พัฒนาตนเอง Sep 24

krishrong — Sun, 01 Sep 2024 03:15:24 +0000

พัฒนาตนเอง Sep 24 krishrong Sun, 09/01/2024 - 10:15

routine

Sep 30

I feel like my convergence insufficiency is relapsing, I tried doing vision therapy again which make my reading better.
- However, there is suspection of Parkinson's diseases, because I have problem about difficulty of talking, but not writing, and my hands usually trimble when I stay still and I noticed that I usually rub my forefinger with thumb like rolling a pill which is one of the early sign of this diseases. I also have persistent convergence insufficiency which is one sign of motor control problem. Also, I lack of facial expression and my voice is tend to be slow monotone and lack of emotion.
By huge loss from trading I realized that I am not genious or smart, I just a poor idiot gambler.
My eye muscle problem comes back. I have to continue my vision therapy again.
I think I will quit trading and return to do my job or anything that make money and real benefit to people.
- trading has less profit and waste too much energy, if I use my precious talented brain for doing real things for this world esp. any difficult or complex work, there will be a lot of innovation created instead of just producing Carbondioxide waste day after day.
- however, trading with trend following is do able as part time job for increase wealth, because of its simplicity and it doesn't require any brain power. But be caution that risk management is always necessary.

Sep 29

I have to rewire my brain and my habits to be more curious to learn any new things and read book in free time instead of spend time do nothing or only watching chart for trade
I feel like watching videos about suffering of people, esp. sickness, give me more understanding of suffering of people and give me more compassion for the other and not to be selfish. Also, I may have to meet with it myself in some day. I shouldn't just enjoy mylife and not make anything benefit to other people.

Sep 28

Today, I tried changing back to do combination of alternate day fasting and HIIT again, after I found that doing Time restricted fasting for 3-4 day decrease my brain sharpness, my activeness and fastness of thinking.
- It is because all day fasting causes an artiificial stress to my body and induces it to improve itself such as muscle power, brain sharpness, ability to learn new things(neuroplasticity), but for TRF, it doesn't cause much or enough stress to the body to improve itself.
I hope today I will not just sit around and don't read anything. I hope I will be able to continue my beloved studying.

Sep 27

Today is the day two that I can't read well I am not sure why coffee didn't help. I think there is something about not sleeping enough, causing my brain unable to compensate to the stress that occur from inadequate resting if I have a coffee.
I also found that my lacking of motivation has relationship with flicking light environment, after I tried changing place to the non flickering light env. it is so much a lot better.
I also drank too much coffee which causes adverse effect on my focus.

Sep 26

I found that reading on the e-reader give me more immersiveness and deeper understanding than on a tablet display.
- However, the quiet environment is still necessary even after having a coffee to improve focus in that day.

Sep 25

I feel like my muscle power is decreasing after I've changed to Time restricted fasting; however, if I do alternate day fasting, I will feel very uncomfortable from eating so much in a day. What should I do?
- however, my decreasing of power may come from doing various exercises which make the body having to seperate the nutrient to many parts of muscle in the body instead of concentrating on one muscle.
I found that reading in the quiet environment help me focusing so much in contrast to the lound and noisy environment
I think I have already improved myself a bit because I just realize of my stupidity/how foolish I am.
Ground coffee didn't help
- Today I found that I can't focus on reading even for a short period of time in all day, though I eat a one shot of ground coffee in the morning.
  - this means that my intestine can't extract caffeine from the ground coffee.
- So I tried drinking one shot of coffee in evening, then, not for a long time after that, I can focus perfectly on my reading again.

Sep 24

I found that calmness and peacefulness from doing meditation is different from be able to focus from drinking coffee, even I can focus by drinking coffee, but if I forgot to do meditation, there will be a lot of tiredness in my mind.
- so meditation is always necessary for everyone.
eating ground coffee bean directly may require fine grinding to allow the digestion and absorption faster. (I use to eat coarsely ground coffee 1.2mm which result in kicking in the evening, but if I grind it finer 0.8mm it will start kick in at noon.)

Sep 23

Today, I did HIIT in the morning, I still got problem about insufficient energy for exercise. I can run so much less even I eat the same amount as when I do alternate day fasting(6 meals in 2 days.)
- I assume that if is because TRF allow me to use most energy for studying, but for alternate day fasting, I make me hugely burn most of my energy within one HIIT, and have less energy for studying.
  - If I want to confirm this assumption, just try doing alternate day fasting again.

Sep 22

I can read books all day for 4 day continuously after I start drink coffee one cup of coffee every day. However, I also changed from doing alternate day fasting to Time restricted fasting(TRF).

The problem is that I can't do meditation anymore if I haven't a coffee yet. And after doing TRF, I feel like my muscle power and exercise energy decreased causing my performance drop. The important is that muscle power is one indicator that I use as my body health, if it dropped after changing fasting method, it may mean that the fasting method may be not better than the method I did before.

I am considering changing of the fasting method back to alternate day fasting.

I found that I can read physicphysiphysics book with full concentrate and enjoyenjoy it so .

Sep 21

Today, I tried having a coffee before doing meditation and found that I can doing it better(more focus, calm and peaceful). It implied that my focus now mostly depend or rely on caffeine.

I also found that HIIT make my brain sharper and be able to think faster, even though I haven't done a prolong fasting(only TRF), I think this method (TRF with HIIT) is better than Alternate-day fasting with HIIT because eating to much in just one day is not good and conversely bad for metabolic health.

Sep 20th

I found that after I've changed from alternate day fasting to Time restricted fasting(usually IF 20/4) and drinking coffee for the sake of my richful studying productivities(still do HIIT day another day)
- I can read productively after drinking one cup of coffee(around 175mg of caffeine)
- My meditation is worse, it doesn't give me peacefulness and focus anymore. I am not sure whether it was caused by shortened fasting duration(less BDNF) or relying on caffeine effect.
  - I should investigate by
    - drinking coffee before doing meditation
    - doing afternate day fasting again.
Reading the great textbook from the great professors or experts inspires me a lot, these academic textbooks contain a lot of real world application examples which make the readers understand the important of those knowledge and make learning more meaningful, even mathematic eg. logarithm can explain the sound decibel or light intensity that decrease as logarithmic rate as the further distance

Sep 19th

Today, I tried eating coffee bean directly(around 15 beans). However, I found that my unfocus thinking was still prevailing, so I had a cup of coffee more, and its result became much better.
- It might be because the coffee is arabica which has less caffeine than robusta and the bean is in small size than the regular, resulting in less caffeine.

Sep 18th

The real problem is lacking of dopamine from my ADHD
- I found that exercise produce the same effect as drinking coffee, especially after waking up that I won't have had a coffee yet.
  
  I also stop doing an alternate day fasting(fasting all day and eating all day in another day), because it didn't help with me focusing(didn't increase dopamine) and eating too much in one day may cause me metabolic disease in the long term.
This is the third day that I can read book with full focus after having a coffee in the morning.
- However, I also fasting which comply me having a meal within 2 hours today with also drop my reading performance a little bit.

Sep 17th

After discussion with myself about an alternate day fasting that requires consuming a lot of food in a feeding day may not be good for health, I will change my fasting method to be Time restricted fasting and follow the 8 precepts of Buddhism which eat food only in the morning, and not taking food after the noon of that day until the next day.
- I'll combine it with one cup of coffee again.
This is the second day that I drink coffee(just a cup a day) my reading is good(it is the new record that my reading performance haven't dropped for 2 days). I hope my reading will be like this every day.
I don't know how fast the world is moving, but if I don't do anything to just improve myself such as reading books, I am sure that I am falling behind.
- but it is hard to just reading, because of my attention deficit(ADHD) by lacking of dopamine, I have to use a cup of coffee (which has an effect in brain stimulant to release dopamine) to be able to focus
Just a coffee a day make me burn my day time productively.

Sep 15th

Today I tried drinking coffee again. It helps improve my focusing and then my reading so much, I can read really a lot today.
- The feeling that time passed so fast in every day with no productivity outcome has gone when I drink coffee just 1-2 cups a day in the morning and afternoon.
- I can read and do my work even though I read under flickering light which make my eye uncomfortable but I still can read anyway.

Sep 14th

I tried removing antimatte film on the Kindle scribe again and found that it make reading easier and more faster.
- it is not about frontlight as my assumption yesterday. It has no pwm dimming but the anti matter film make it is harder to read.

Sep 13rd

reading under non-flickering light is a real deal
- In the morning I tried reading under the flickering light environment it didn't go well at all, I tried so hard to focus on reading even on the lonely place.
- But in the evening, I've changed the place to read under the non-flickering light. I found that my eyes could easily focus and the reading went very well.
the book for self development from @jvsholz(youtube channel)
- Atomic habit
- Deep work
- can't hurt me
I think my Kindle scribe may have some kind of light flickering because I just can't read on it much long when the front light is on. I need to investigate it in some ways.
- my non-pwm backlight Tablet is always comfortable to read even when I feel tried from reading on Kindle scribe?!

Sep 12nd

I think Alternate day fasting has some flaw which is eating too much refined carb because of its much more availability than complex carb(carb with fiber).
I found that My MacBook pro 2021 that has pwm dimming, when using it for extended periods, is more uncomfortable for my eye(eye strain) than normal laptop that don't use pwm dimming.

Sep 10th

I think staying up late has a lot of effect in decreasing my productivity https://www.health.com/condition/sleep/health-risks-night-owl
I notice that this guy, unlike so many YouTubers, his productivity technique is very simple but rather effective than the others, no need to buy any of the latest pricey high tech devices! (many Youtubers always produce 'which one to buy' content, but nothing really productive from those new devices)

Sep 7th

I found that my productivity decrease more and more with weight loss(from 50 to 48.8kg). There are 2 suspected causes.
- Weight loss too much, I may have to stop fasting until my weight gain to normal.
- Or may it be caused by eating too much in feeding day?(6 meals in one day) because after the feeding day which is fasting day I usually can't focus well, but after fasting day which is feeding day my focus will come back.
- The experiments
  1. Try eating 6 meals continuously for 2 days?
  2. Try changing to time restricted fasting for 2 days?
- Other compounding factors
  - Light flickering of display screen(my macbook pro) and the environment(the university library)
    - when I write or doing work on normal laptop that doesn't have flickering display screen(pwm dimming) I can do it comfortably all day but when I do it on my macbook pro which have pwm dimming I usually just be able to work in the morning to afternoon but at the evening I will can't work at all.
    - Also I feel that my language skill don't improve much even I read a lot on macbook pro screen. I suspected that and tried compare reading on my macbook and my another laptop side by side and found that reading and working on a cheaper laptop(without pwm dimming) is so much comfortable.
- Even at the time I write this diary, I use my cheaper non-pwm dimming laptop and found it is so much comfortable even it has so much less screen quality and resolution(pixel density).

Sep 6th

Today is my fasting day, I did HIIT in the morning
- I found that my reading is worse, I suppose it may be caused by eating junk food in the evening.
Don't eat any junk food, it will kill you.
I am still considering buying a tablet, the CPU performance is so good with a good screen and the perfect pen and keyboard, and with the budget prices, it is so worth the money. It will work fine for a very long time passes.
- however, I am not sure whether it is what I want.
  - I am thinking about a device that provides me with the ability to read textbooks, news, and trade all day.
  - the most I want is to read textbooks more easily from a larger text.
- Benefit vs cost
  - just reading some text?
  - cost equal to my 3 months of spending.
- it may be good but not this time!!! I don't really need it!!! it doesn't help improve my life this time.
  1. I am not sure that I will be able to read it all day. (but I have to make sure that I save as much money as I can)
  2. The screen quality is not much different from other displays esp. MacBook Pro
  3. the books I read at this time don't require reading on a tablet than simply reading on a MacBook or Kindle Scribe. (The Academic textbooks will be read after I can make money from trading, at that time I can buy any tablet I want)
Drop in reading performance from an eye muscle problem, not caused by a small or large text or light flickering
- I found that if I place the Kindle at a further length I can read it better.
  - which means that reading on screen is still not better than e-ink
- I found that after I changed the front light of my Kindle to be more blue, my reading performance deteriorated, but after changing it back to more yellow as before, I can read it again.

Sep 5th

I should track only activities that I am interested in a particular time, not all activities. Keep it simple as possible and use it only for particular purposes eg. reminding of looping activities, not just wasting time in tracking all things without any benefit
Today
- my feeding day
- reading is so much better after fasting for 36 hours.
- weight loss(49.1kgs)
In the afternoon, I usually drop in reading performance, maybe the eye muscle problem is remaining.
- I also found that if the text size is larger I will be able to read better, even though it is evening.
- - or is it not a problem from eye muscles but from the fatigue of eye lens muscles which is caused by the flickering of light?
    - because the font in Kindle Scribe is large enough(3mm), normal eyes should always read comfortably, but this may caused by the light from the environment.

Sep 4th

Today is my fasting day. no exercise because of weight loss(2lbs)
- my touch typing is gradually better
- at these times, I sleep quite late every day.
- I think I will try reading on screen today.
- it seems like I can't eat any dairy products. After eating yogurt for a few days, I got a little diarrhea, more acne, more facial rash with a flare-up of seborrheic dermatitis.
Wanting to buy a new tablet is it worth?
- the cost is equal to the costs of my 3 months
- the benefit of this tablet is reading which can be achieved on my Kindle, just little convenient in scrolling, note taking and doing other thing eg. trading.
  - it is 3:2 ratio which is good for reading
  - the next question is does it make me read faster or more focus because of better contrast of display?
- the usage is between kindle and MacBook.
  - if I normally use both, the third may not much necessary.
Gaming ruins my meditation and focus
- Increasing free access to entertainment injects my brain with instant artificial dopamine which causes me to focus less on myself and also my reading which causes less productivity.
Sodium loss from diarrhea
- I just found that eating dairy products(yogurt) cause diarrhea, and diarrhea causes my body to lose sodium, sodium loss cause me can't focus in the day.

Sep 3th

I think my life is not very effective, there are some activities that is quite not effectively productive
- such as too much tracking of activities in my schedule which require some portion of time spent but do not improve much outcome. Also, the tracking must have a reflection or feedback system to improve something in those inefficient daily routines.
- writing a diary has the nature of a feedback mechanism in itself but not very systematically. Conversely, tracking in schedule is more systematic but spends more time and doesn't provide many effective feedback mechanisms.
- it must be simple, not too much tiny details, not complex, not boring but simply useful.

Sep 1th

Today is my feeding day.
- my touch typing is slower but it comes with a new skill which is typing in words, not pressing each key separately
- I forgot to do meditation again, even though it is the most important thing in my day.
If you want to develop any skill, do it in a meditated state eg. Calculation, language, Programming etc.
Reading and doing short notes simultaneously help a lot in understanding and longer remembering because it will urge the brain to actively process and structure the information which creates a lot deeper understanding and remembering.
I tried meditation before working and studying, the focus is so much better, and less procrastination.
Now I am thinking about buying something that will be useful for my life eg. a new smartphone or tablet, but I found that all things that I have(MacBook, Kindle Scribe, smartphone) can do all the job perfectly, buying more will be a burden instead.
- If I spend money on worthless things, even though I don't have much savings, it means I still can't manage money.
- What I should do is decrease my need by doing meditation.

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Aug 23rd

Even though no one appreciates or sees the value in you which may be common in people, you must always appreciate the value of yourself, at least how you've tried scrambling through a lot of failed outcomes is a very worthwhile experience. Unable to achieve the target doesn't mean you have no value, you've already gained a lot of knowledge from trying that.

Aug 21st

looking at the positive side is always better than looking at the negative side, hope is always better than despair for the upcoming future.

Aug 11th

Flickering light deteriorates reading productivity
- you can easily detect flickering light with pro mode in the smartphone camera.
Doing meditation with a diamond cross-legged sitting posture is the best
- it will automatically make your back upright and straight.

Aug 10th

I love reading because my happiness always occurs when I learn new things.
I am not sure whether should I publish my discovery(peeling the AG layer off the Kindle Scribe makes the reading better) to other people who are interested in the web board. However, I think even the least of ideas or information that I post will have benefit to the other.

Aug 9th

when you meet stupid people, there is no need to do anything, their stupidities will destroy themselves.
- what you should do is to accumulate infinite knowledge to yourself. So that your stupidity will become less and won't destroy your life.
when I do a meditation, I find that sitting posture is also important. When sitting cross-legged the back has to be straight upright.
When you have an idea and want to express it to other people on the web board, write as much as you can, no need to be ashamed. If they don't understand it is not your fault, it is their duty to try to understand it.

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